♫ I'm really bad at this updating regularly thing. I don't know why. I have a lot of feels and frustrations, and I like to get them out of my system, but maybe it's because I've been talking to real people more? Hmm, okay, I suppose that's an improvement, but I also feel bad that I'm not very good at keeping up with LJ and the people on it anymore. I got behind on my flist a while back and never managed to catch up.
♫ It's hard to believe sophomore fall is over. In another semester, I'll be halfway through college. I have to declare next semester, by before spring break. This is so frightening for me.
♫ This was such a weird semester. It was just so different from last year, which I suppose is normal because every semester will be different and I don't exactly have a lot to compare it to. Last year was unusual all on its own. There was the first semester of college, which is just CRAZY in itself, and then second semester was largely consumed by KDPhi pledge so it was just a weird semester of me being angry a lot and complaining about how much life sucked despite not really doing anything outside of schoolwork and pledge. (And realizing how lazy but controlling I am, which is just SO ME to be so many contradictions.)
♫ Being a sophomore was awesome because I got to live on West, which is about fifty bajillion times more convenient, and I also have an awesome huge room and I live with some of my closest friends at Duke and it's awesome. So that was great. Schoolwork was pretty good. But then things got really weird personally/friends-wise? We had really awesome plans to go out and have a good time because fall is when all the open parties are, but that ended up not really happening because the parties weren't nearly as exciting as they used to be (probably because we weren't freshmen anymore, and they're all freshmen-oriented parties) and then all the personal life stuff went down.( Cut because this semester was ridiculously dramaticCollapse )tl;dr
Kathy can't help begrudging her friends their happiness because she is selfish, and the weird thing with The Boy continues but ends right before winter break.
♫ So that's been my semester. A weird one, for sure. Next semester I will be a lot busier, so I think I'll be focusing on schoolwork and extracurriculars (my sorority will be taking a new class, my theatre group is trying to do its first full production, and I've been shanghai'd into tenting for the Duke vs UNC game). Hopefully I'll get to spend more time with friends too. We'll see. But still, part of me can't help continuing to want a boyfriend, to want that kind of person in my life even though I know I won't really have time for it (I was pretty stressed out trying to make time to hang out with The Boy this semester anyways).
♫ A cool thing: I am going to Shanghai from Jan 3 - 15! School actually starts on the 8th, so I'm missing the first week of school (such a rebel, I know), but Duke is paying for me and another girl in my grade to attend the Shanghai Theatre Academy's Winter Institute. I'm really excited because THEATRE STUFF, YAY. :D I don't get to take a theatre class next semester, so getting to do some theatre stuff in Shanghai will be awesome. Making up the classes may not go so well, but ah well, my GPA can handle it.