Nessarose [happiness beyond dreams]

wow, i should probably stop saying i'm back because then i don't update for months

♫ I'm really bad at this updating regularly thing. I don't know why. I have a lot of feels and frustrations, and I like to get them out of my system, but maybe it's because I've been talking to real people more? Hmm, okay, I suppose that's an improvement, but I also feel bad that I'm not very good at keeping up with LJ and the people on it anymore. I got behind on my flist a while back and never managed to catch up.

♫ It's hard to believe sophomore fall is over. In another semester, I'll be halfway through college. I have to declare next semester, by before spring break. This is so frightening for me.

♫ This was such a weird semester. It was just so different from last year, which I suppose is normal because every semester will be different and I don't exactly have a lot to compare it to. Last year was unusual all on its own. There was the first semester of college, which is just CRAZY in itself, and then second semester was largely consumed by KDPhi pledge so it was just a weird semester of me being angry a lot and complaining about how much life sucked despite not really doing anything outside of schoolwork and pledge. (And realizing how lazy but controlling I am, which is just SO ME to be so many contradictions.)

♫ Being a sophomore was awesome because I got to live on West, which is about fifty bajillion times more convenient, and I also have an awesome huge room and I live with some of my closest friends at Duke and it's awesome. So that was great. Schoolwork was pretty good. But then things got really weird personally/friends-wise? We had really awesome plans to go out and have a good time because fall is when all the open parties are, but that ended up not really happening because the parties weren't nearly as exciting as they used to be (probably because we weren't freshmen anymore, and they're all freshmen-oriented parties) and then all the personal life stuff went down.

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tl;dr Kathy can't help begrudging her friends their happiness because she is selfish, and the weird thing with The Boy continues but ends right before winter break.

♫ So that's been my semester. A weird one, for sure. Next semester I will be a lot busier, so I think I'll be focusing on schoolwork and extracurriculars (my sorority will be taking a new class, my theatre group is trying to do its first full production, and I've been shanghai'd into tenting for the Duke vs UNC game). Hopefully I'll get to spend more time with friends too. We'll see. But still, part of me can't help continuing to want a boyfriend, to want that kind of person in my life even though I know I won't really have time for it (I was pretty stressed out trying to make time to hang out with The Boy this semester anyways).

♫ A cool thing: I am going to Shanghai from Jan 3 - 15! School actually starts on the 8th, so I'm missing the first week of school (such a rebel, I know), but Duke is paying for me and another girl in my grade to attend the Shanghai Theatre Academy's Winter Institute. I'm really excited because THEATRE STUFF, YAY. :D I don't get to take a theatre class next semester, so getting to do some theatre stuff in Shanghai will be awesome. Making up the classes may not go so well, but ah well, my GPA can handle it.
Susan [here i am beautiful]

i got paid today!

♫ Yup, 3rd paycheck on the job so far. This is so exciting, I've never had this much money in my bank account before.

♫ I forgot to mention my job in my last post: I'm working in a neuro/bio lab at the cancer center in Houston (officially, the department I'm in is Experimental Radiation Oncology, which sounds really impressive). The PI is a radiation oncologist interested in side effects of radiation on cognition, especially in kids. Basically I mix chemicals and try to do Western blots (and fail at that, mostly), I also do behavioral stuff with mice and some neuron imaging. The neuron imaging is nice because the images take so long to do that I set my laptop up next to the microscope and watch movies/TV while I wait. I've gone through a lot of my old movies already, so I've been rewatching Legend of Korra, and it's been lots of fun (though I remembered why I hate love triangles so much :\).

♫ And speaking of Korra! The trailer for season 2 was released at SDCC yesterday! It looks *beautiful.* Whether it'll be like last season remains to be seen, but I'm optimistic. I think now that Bryke knows they have more seasons, they won't try to rush the story as much. I just really, really hope that we get some serious character development, especially with Bolin & Asami.

♫ SDCC has basically just been giving me so much fandom-y goodness that I'm really, really upset I can't be there. (I've lamented this fact multiple times on Twitter already.) There was a Young Justice meetup today, an Agents of Shield panel (and pilot screening!!), a Game of Thrones panel, a Korra panel (1st episode of season 2 was shown, but it's not online yet why asd;fkjsdf), and also a TEEN WOLF PANEL OH MY GOD.

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♫ Anyways, in similarly dorky but not SDCC-related news, I started watching the White Queen miniseries. I never finished the Philippa Gregory book, and I know she's not really a good author and whatnot (it was airport reading), but I just can't help it with period dramas? Plus there's all manner of pretty powerful ladies, so there's that.

♫ I don't really know what I'm doing for the rest of this weekend. Probably just reading Teen Wolf fic. I have to go to work for an hour tomorrow to start behavioral testing for the mice though. :\
Nessarose [happiness beyond dreams]

a surprisingly fandomy, not!variety post

♫ First things first: Josh Hutcherson was cast as Peeta. And Liam Hemsworth as Gale (I keep wanting to say Liam Neeson, argh). RAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAGE. THIS IS NOT ALLOWED. I DISAPPROVE. *STAMP OF DISAPPROVAL* Feel the fire of my disapproval, Lionsgate, it is the disapproval of a thousand suns! Hunter Parrish is Peeta, guys, I refuse to accept any other Peeta. They just don't do it for me. Also, Liam Hemsworth. He's worked with Miley Cyrus. He's dated Miley Cyrus. Just, NO.

♫ But! On a happier note, I come to encourage everyone (or at least those who haven't already done so) to watch Downton Abbey! It is a splendid show, I will try and tell you why.

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♫ Okay, I really ought to go to bed....soon.
Nessarose [happiness beyond dreams]

Purple Wednesday

Originally posted by thelake at Purple Wednesday

It’s been decided. On October 20th, 2010, we will wear purple in honor of the 6 gay boys who committed suicide in recent weeks/months due to homophobic abuse in their homes at at their schools. Purple represents Spirit on the LGBTQ flag and that’s exactly what we’d like all of you to have with you: spirit. Please know that times will get better and that you will meet people who will love you and respect you for who you are, no matter your sexuality. Please wear purple on October 20th. Tell your friends, family, co-workers, neighbors and schools.

RIP Tyler Clementi, Seth Walsh
RIP Justin Aaberg, Raymond Chase
RIP Asher Brown and Billy Lucas

REBLOG to spread a message of love, unity and peace.

- original post by [info]neo_prodigy

I couldn't wear purple, since I have a school uniform and don't own purple accessories (for some odd reason), but my room is purple? I hope that counts for something. <333 RIP.
Nessarose [happiness beyond dreams]


This is for real serious business. Not even kidding around.

This is a notice to warn you about an abusive user called fort_kanji. If this person adds you, DO NOT ADD HIM BACK. He has a history of enabling, cyber stalking, and harassing younger women.

The user fort_kanji, known in real life as Lohr Miller, is a close-to-sixty year old who lives in Baton Rouge, Louisiana. He constructs an identity for himself on Livejournal that is predicated on pseudo-intellectualism and thinly veiled misogyny, racism, and sizeism. He values what he called BRDYTW girls, which stands for "bookish reclusive dangerously younger train wrecky," a new acronym to stand in for an older adjective he invented based on the condition of cachexia, in which a person suffering from cancer or another chronic disease loses weight and muscular strength as a result of the disease. These girls are invariably white; he has a history of coldly dissociating from nonwhite women because of their racial or ethnic identity. These girls are also preferably underage or in their early twenties. Mr. Miller has had a history of supporting and enabling eating disorders, drug abuse, and alcohol abuse in young women.

The rest of the post contains more information regarding what exactly fort_kanji does, as well as a list of his usernames on various social networking sites (, Twitter, etc.).

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Nessarose [happiness beyond dreams]

(some) coherency, or my position on racefail in The Last Airbender

♫ So, in light of the fact that The Last Airbender is being release tomorrow, I've decided to clarify exactly why the movie is full of racefail, why I find it offensive, and why I will still being going to see it so I can make a complete judgement on it (which, yes, I know, defeats the purpose of boycotting the movie for its racefail, but I feel that one should reserve complete judgement - humans judge, it's a fact of life - until seeing the complete package).

♫ To be honest, this spawned from the fact that, on a whim, I decided to look up early reviews on TLA. And instead of just being incoherently angry, I'm going to try and write this out properly.

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Edmund [you think you can fool me?]

Making up for lost time here...

♫ Since I haven't posted in a while, yay for constant posting! /loser

♫ Okay, since I'm a freak, I'm going to quote one of my favorite Wicked lines to y'all (paraphrased, because I can't remember it exactly). It's kind of a stupid line, and some people don't like it, but I can't get over it.

FIYERO: My family has a castle in Kiamo Ko. No one's ever there except the sentries who guard it. We've never lived there.
ELPHABA: ...Then, where do you live?
FIYERO: The other castle.
ELPHABA: Oh. Of course.

♫ So, it's silly, yes, but I adore it. *is easily amused* I even named a photo album after it. /crazy

♫ Okay, but to the main point of this post, a meme. twoskeletons asked me five questions. If you want me to ask you five questions, comment with your first toy (that you remember).

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♫ So, it's the last day of spring break. That's really, really upsetting. I don't want to have to work. *cries*